On what we don't say, and why we keep writing anyway.
Reading Samuel Beckett's six thousand letters, and the slow argument with the sentence that became, in the end, his whole work.
Beckett's letters, taken together, are the record of a long argument with the page — with the sentence, and then with the idea that a sentence is the right unit at all. Six thousand of them. Over forty years. What emerges when you read them chronologically is not a writer sharpening his craft but a writer losing faith in the craft and continuing nonetheless.
What draws me back is not the drafts themselves but the letters about the drafts, and above all the letters about letters about drafts — the third-degree correspondence in which Beckett apologises to a friend for the apology he sent on Tuesday, which itself apologised for the hasty note of Sunday.
In the winter of 1951 Beckett spent the best part of three weeks on one sentence. We know this because in the third week he finally wrote to Thomas MacGreevy and described what he had been doing. The letter is sardonic — Beckett always is, about his own inability — but something in its detail makes the sentence visible.
He describes taking it apart. He describes putting it back together. He describes putting it back together wrongly. He describes, eventually, abandoning it, because the version he could have lived with was the one that no longer belonged in the page it had been written for.
That sentence did not survive into the published work. I have checked. But what did survive — as far as I can tell, what survived across the whole of the subsequent thirty years — was the discipline that sentence taught him.
[essay continues on p. 14 of the printed issue].